Gee golly life sure is boring.

I'm rather sick of it. I want to do something interesting or worthwhile or NOT pointless. Alas, High School conforms to none of those ideals. The only class I like is Art. And I'm not particularly good. Sometimes I wish I was more decisive. More talented. More SOMETHING.

Right now I just feel kind of useless, pointless, a waste of space. I want to help people. I want to make a difference.

I want to save the goddamn world.

But I don't think it's possible. People are just too fucked. If humanity is the principle of humans caring for other human beings then it has been lost.

No one cares about lives.

Scratch that, the vast majority of people are not concerned about others. They care about one thing: the bottom line, their profit, their power, MONEY. It really pisses me off. And what the fuck can I do to change it?

People need to change.

The world needs to change.

Or we're just all fucked.

Yay pessimism!

Yay? Iunno. Chocolate is good. Mmmm dinner tonight will be even better.

So yeah, I got bored of the last journal that's been up since last May... Hahaha.

Now my Happy Easter can sit here for another 11 months. Not.

Shake shake shake. Durrrrr.

Bubble wrap buhbye.

lonely the lady lands awaits the landing
bored but barely baiting, together banding
aliens all aware of awnings
yellow yikes rarely yawning
day the daunting time is dawning
flowing flailing floral fawning
watching waiting width of view
the mist of mockery bates you too.

that was not random in the least. j'aime l'alliteration apparentement. why am i speaking broken french. if anyone can figure that out please let me know.

yay, I feel special now lol. what it's only taken me like four months... so yeah.

so yeh, I had a cadet excercise and now I'm tired and awesome. the goal we had was to make 500 hundred sandbags-we made a thousand.
then all of them were loaded onto trucks, unloaded and had to be set inplace on the FOB (I totally forget what that stands for but it was on a hill with burms up the side and lookout points around.) and then I did most of the work yesterday and I was really tired bacause I ended up being pretty much the only female that was able to help at all and actually tried. and then to top off my day I ended up with fire picket from 3-4. at night.
and so now I'm sitting at home and complaining lol. so yeah it was actually pretty good but tiring. and I'm gonna go have a nap now-cause I are lameass.